Heto na naman ang panahon na ito. Hindi po Christmas ang aking tinutukoy. Hindi rin New Year. Octoberfest! Hindi rin. Kaarawan ko na naman. A year older. A year wiser. Ilang taon na ako ? Never mind. Age is just a number. A number that I’d rather keep to myself! Hmp.
I used to love birthdays. Dati ay big deal ito. There was a time that I would celebrate my birthday for a week. As in. I would have dinner with a different set of friends everyday of the week to celebrate my greatness hehehe. Those where the days na nasa dictionary ko pa ang salitang socialization. Those where the days na excited ka pang maging “early twenties”. Not that I am old-old now. Hindi pa naman ako tinatawag na “manong”. Kuya pwede pa. Minsan Tito. But never manong. Siguro in a few more years – baka ma-accept ko na. J Pero still – I can’t help but feel na manong na manong na ako — sa pag-uugali. I hate noisy places. Why go to a club when you can have coffee in an out of the way coffe shop ang gab with friends. Why go out when you can stay in your room – turn up the aircon and watch the telly. Why? Why? Sabihin nyo sa akin. Hehehe.
Anyway – balik tayo sa aking kaarawan. Birthdays for me is a day of reflecting. What have you done for the past year. What have you accomplished? What should you have accomplished. Yup — torture. Pero ganun talaga. Kung hindi mo iisipin ang mga nagawa mo – paano mo malamaman ang mga dapat at pwede mo pang gawin?
For the past couple of birthdays – ang lagi kong naiisip sa pagrereflect na ito ay ang mga failures sa buhay. Mga bagay na hindi nakuha or nakamit. Lagi tuloy akong malungkot. Kaya this year — iisipin ko na lang ang mga magagandang bagay na mayroon ako. Una na dyan ang aking pamilya — kadalasan man na problema ang binibigay —- I’m still thankful I still have my family. I still miss my Mom terrirbly — pero ganun talaga. Focus na lang sa mga tao na kapiling pa. Friends – hindi man ako Mr. Friendship – the few I have makes me happy. Quality — kaysa quantitiy. Work. Okay – I may bitch a lot about my work.. Lagi ko man sabihin na tinatamad na ako or naiinis na ako – still – it’s an okay work. Okay naman ang sweldo kahit walang increase. Workload is still manageable. Kaya pa naman pagtiisan ang mga nakakairitang nilalang. Material things – okay… wala ako masyado nito… pero hindi naman ako nagdaraphop. It would be good kung manalo ako ng milyon-milyon sa lotto. Pero until that time – kaunting tipid-tipid muna. It would be great kung makauwi na ako sa NasPi. Pero until hindi pa ako financially stable — tiis-tiis muna. Meron naming TFC e… hehehe… pangbawas lungkot. All in all — I think I have a good life. It would be better if it will become a great life. Pero good is good. Kung papalarin at bibigyan ng great live – cherry on top ito.
What are my plans for the coming year? Naku – ayaw ko masyadong magset ng mataas na goal. Siguro — I want to travel more. Miss ko na mag-out of the country e. I also wanted to learn something new — probably take a class…or kahit certification. I plan to be contented. Yan siguro ang wala ako ngayon . Yung maging contented with what I have. I plan to be patient. Wag masyadong personalin ang mga kainis-inis na bagay sa trabaho.. Sabi nga – trabaho lang yan. Mahirap gawin – pero pipilitin. I plan to be positive. Mahirap laging nega. Nakakapagod. Dapat positive lagi. Lastly — I plan to be happy. I just had a good year — I have a feeling — the coming year will be better!. Happy Birthday to me!!!!
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I plan to write more. Miss ko na ang mag-blog.
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