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It has been one “need to write this in my blog” week. Nope. My life is still the same – it’s as exciting as stale bread. Nga lang – this week – medyo may mga gumalaw sa bread. Parang medyo nabangga or inikot. May kaunting mga pangayayari ba.

I learned a couple of incidents that made me feel sad. First was the death of the brother of a dear friend. Kahit hindi naman kami close nung brother nya – we sometimes see him nung panay ang tambay naming magbabarkada sa bahay nila. Friend – again , my condolences. Just this morning naman – I received a mail from another friend. She’s 6 weeks pregnant na – kaya lang nalaman nya na the baby inside her is already dead. Ayun – as expected – she’s devastated. It’s her 2^nd na anak sana. I called her up just to chat. I made it a point not to say stupid things such as … okay lang yan.. or isipin mo na lang na angel na sya … get my drift? Ang sabi ko lang – ganyan talaga ang buhay… may mga bagay na hindi natin kayang i-control. Sabi nga – bad things happen to good people. Wala na tayong magawa.

Yesterday naman – was my Mom’s death anniversary… kasabay din ito ng 1^st year death anniversary ng nanay ng housemate ko. Hay naku. Years have passed – but I still miss my Mom. And there’s nothing like death anniversaries to make you remember that someone you so loved is already gone. Hay naku. Ano ba naman itong week na to. Puro pagkawala ang nangyayari.

Kahapon din – my Dad sent me an sms saying na nasa bahay ang Lola at Tita ko sa mother side. Nagpunta sila sa cemetery – lighted candles and offered prayers. Aside from that – may dala rin silang medyo hindi kagandahang news — I don’t have the full details yet as I am yet to talk to my Dad. Sabihin na lang natin na it involves properties and money. Naku. Problema ko na naman ito. May idea na ako actually — as I am already expecting that sooner or later maiisip nila yung piece of land sa likod ng bahay namin. The land is owned by my mom’s brother na unfortunately couple of years ago ay na-stroke. I know that they are in dire need of money – kaya naisip ko na darating ang time that they will sell it. Since nasa likod ng bahay namin –and may mga ilang structures na rin kaming naitayo – there’s not other choice but for me to buy the lot. Hay – and I was just mentioning few blogs ago of my financial standing. Anyway – not to go ahead …. Hintayin kong makausap ang aking butihing ama bago ko tunay na problemahin ito.

The above paragraphs all describes the bad news and problema na dumating sa akin ngayong week na ito. What surprises me is my attitude towards it. I was sad for the death of my dear friends loved ones – but I am also thankful that my family are okay. I am sad that my mom is no longer with me – but I am thankful that my Dad still is — kahit na I don’t agree with his decisions most of the times. I am on the edge with the unplanned need for a large sum of money — but I am thankful that I still have the capability to earn money. I am thankful na ang proproblemahin ko lang ngayon – ay pera. Unlike my friends who lost their loved ones. Kung iisipin kasi — madali naman masolusyunan ang problema sa pera. Pero ang pagkawala ng mga minamahal — walang solusyon dyan. The sadness will diminish in time — diminish – but won’t go away. It will always be with you – maybe until its your time to go.